I can't believe I have been a high school graduate for 1 week now. It feels weird to not have to count down the days till break is over. Till I have to return to school. Nope not for me.
Was going to start college this semester, but didn't get my financial aid stuff in on time and cannot pay out of pocket. Totally disappointed, but ready to find a job! (and I'm still part of the class of '09!)
Applying EVERYWHERE i can. Had an interview today at The Buckle. Really hoping to get that job. Have an interview Friday at 4 at Hollister. And just turned in an app to Aeropostal and should be getting an interview soon! So pumped!
In order to get my CCAP I have to have 2 part time jobs, or a full time job. The full time at The Buckle would be the best!
Wish me luck!
Cannot believe David and I have been back together for 2 months now. (Well almost.) Mostly everyone has moved on from it. Thank goodness because come on people the past is the past.
Last time I checked everyone makes mistakes.
I wish him and I were still getting married. I miss that so much. I am very disapointed that everything had to happen the way it did. He didn't want to be with me so we broke up and I started dating someone else. Now tell me How is that cheating? That is what he and everyone else seems to think. Ridiculous.
Brodey has been sick off and on the past couple weeks. I feel so bad for the little guy. I cannot believe he is about to be 14 months! It is unbelieveable!!!!!! He is sooo close to walking. He walks from couch to table to chairs to other things a lot. In fact I would basically say he is walking. I can hold him up and let go and he will take 5-10 steps and then crawl. He's doing it A LOT lately. It truly is an amazing thing to watch. He is so cute and looks so much like his daddy. <3<3<3
What a crazy decade this has been. Anyone ready for the new one to begin? I sure am. This is defiantly going to be a good time to change.
Tuesday, December 29, 2009
Thursday, November 26, 2009
Haven't blogged in quite some time
Hello everyone. My son is 1. I can't believe it. His party was canceled that Saturday, but we ended up having it last Saturday! :) It was a pretty good turn out!
Today was Thanksgiving. It was a good day. My brother and his girlfriend came over and so did David. Then a little after that I went to David's.
For the third time.
His family has put aside their issues with me as I have done with them. I am so excited! :) Things are starting to get better.
There's only 18 more days left till graduation!!!! I have SOOO much I have to do! I really hope I get it all done!!!!!!!! I don't want to stay ANOTHER quarter!
The drama there? I'm so over it.
I have been pretty happy these days. Things are really working out between David and I. He is amazing. I have the most fun when I am with him. He is a great father. :)
-Lyrics to songs for him-
Run baby, run
Don't ever look back
They'll tear us apart
If you give them the chance
Don't sell your heart
Don't say we're not meant to be
Run baby, run
Forever we'll be
You and me
Check Yes Juliet-We The Kings
I know you love me
And soon you will see
You were meant for me
And I was meant for you.
You Were Meant For me-Jewel
They said, "I bet they'll never make it"
But just look at us holding on
We're still together still going strong
You're Still The One-Shania Twain
<3<3<3
Today was Thanksgiving. It was a good day. My brother and his girlfriend came over and so did David. Then a little after that I went to David's.
For the third time.
His family has put aside their issues with me as I have done with them. I am so excited! :) Things are starting to get better.
There's only 18 more days left till graduation!!!! I have SOOO much I have to do! I really hope I get it all done!!!!!!!! I don't want to stay ANOTHER quarter!
The drama there? I'm so over it.
I have been pretty happy these days. Things are really working out between David and I. He is amazing. I have the most fun when I am with him. He is a great father. :)
-Lyrics to songs for him-
Run baby, run
Don't ever look back
They'll tear us apart
If you give them the chance
Don't sell your heart
Don't say we're not meant to be
Run baby, run
Forever we'll be
You and me
Check Yes Juliet-We The Kings
I know you love me
And soon you will see
You were meant for me
And I was meant for you.
You Were Meant For me-Jewel
They said, "I bet they'll never make it"
But just look at us holding on
We're still together still going strong
You're Still The One-Shania Twain
<3<3<3
Sunday, November 8, 2009
ONE TOMORROW!!!!
I cannot believe my little boy is going to be one tomorrow!!!
It is going to be a mind boggling experience!
This time last year I was headed to bed getting ready to be induced at 7 in the morning not realizing I was going to wake up at 4 in the morning and have my water break! Midnight may be the start of his first birthday, but he is not officially one until 7:08 AM.
I just still cannot believe that my little guy is growing up so fast!
Though you are turning one tomorrow
In my mind you will always be
My baby
You seem to be growing up
So fast.
One tomorrow and 18 the next.
Though I am excited to watch you grow up.
I will always think of you as
My baby.
Time will fly by.
I will cherish each and every moment.
Always thinking of you as
My baby.
I can't believe you are almost walking
You have 6 teeth
And are talking.
Somewhat.
I will hold on to every milestone
And always think of you as
My baby.
Tomorrow David, my mom and I are going to have a little cake and party for him. Just the four of us. We are going to buy him a happy meal too! Then on Sat we are having a party for him! I am so excited, but at the same time I feel like I am going to cry. My baby is going to be a TODDLER. I feel like this first year has gone by way to fast. It is going to be a bittersweet day. 62 more minutes until his first birthday. WOW.
It is going to be a mind boggling experience!
This time last year I was headed to bed getting ready to be induced at 7 in the morning not realizing I was going to wake up at 4 in the morning and have my water break! Midnight may be the start of his first birthday, but he is not officially one until 7:08 AM.
I just still cannot believe that my little guy is growing up so fast!
Though you are turning one tomorrow
In my mind you will always be
My baby
You seem to be growing up
So fast.
One tomorrow and 18 the next.
Though I am excited to watch you grow up.
I will always think of you as
My baby.
Time will fly by.
I will cherish each and every moment.
Always thinking of you as
My baby.
I can't believe you are almost walking
You have 6 teeth
And are talking.
Somewhat.
I will hold on to every milestone
And always think of you as
My baby.
Tomorrow David, my mom and I are going to have a little cake and party for him. Just the four of us. We are going to buy him a happy meal too! Then on Sat we are having a party for him! I am so excited, but at the same time I feel like I am going to cry. My baby is going to be a TODDLER. I feel like this first year has gone by way to fast. It is going to be a bittersweet day. 62 more minutes until his first birthday. WOW.
Wednesday, October 28, 2009
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
Doin alright...
Things are going pretty good. (for the most part..)
FRIDAY-
Was amazing! I went to The Church dance club with David. My cousin Amanda and two of her friends showed up. We danced till like 12:30! I didnt wanna go! Dancing is just freeing! But it was snowing and of course we had to get back to Brodey. So we drove him. It was good till we hit Westminster. It was like a skating rink at that point. We didnt get home till about 1. David spent the night because he was tired and I didnt want him driving anymore. The weather was getting worse.
SATURDAY-
David went home for a while and came back. Then Brodey, David, my mom, and I went to dinner at the Olive Garden. After that we rented a couple movies and watched them. In the begining of the second one David fell asleep. He like passed out. I could hardly even wake him. He told me to text his brother and tell him to pick him up in the morning.
Then Sunday I drove him and Brodey to his brother's work. (His brother had his blazer for homecoming the previous evening.) Then David brought Brodey back Sunday night and put in child safety stuff for us.
I really wish that things were different. That his family would forgive me like he did. I know I made a mistake but last time I checked I was only human. I miss his family sometimes. Like being able to go over to his house also and eating dinner with them.
Why do memories have to stay? I hate them. That is the hardest part is remembering all those times together. I opened up my diary and read it last night and cried a little bit because of all the memories. Things I totally forgot that happend.
Sometimes I wish that the memories all disappeared and the only thing about him that I could remember was that he is my son's father. I wish I could fall asleep and wake up tomorrow not remembering the bad or good memories. 39 months with someone is such a long time. So many memories...
Sometimes I feel as if I am the only person in the world that is going through this. That feels this way. I feel alone. I know that I am not, and their are people I can talk to like my mom, but it is hard. You know? When I feel like this the one person I want to talk to is David.
To his family:
I apologize for everything that was ever said.
I hate holding grudges. I hate being hated. I cannot stand it when someone holds a grudge against me. I hate feeling like the most hated person in the world. I wish things were different! I wish I could take it all back!!!!
FRIDAY-
Was amazing! I went to The Church dance club with David. My cousin Amanda and two of her friends showed up. We danced till like 12:30! I didnt wanna go! Dancing is just freeing! But it was snowing and of course we had to get back to Brodey. So we drove him. It was good till we hit Westminster. It was like a skating rink at that point. We didnt get home till about 1. David spent the night because he was tired and I didnt want him driving anymore. The weather was getting worse.
SATURDAY-
David went home for a while and came back. Then Brodey, David, my mom, and I went to dinner at the Olive Garden. After that we rented a couple movies and watched them. In the begining of the second one David fell asleep. He like passed out. I could hardly even wake him. He told me to text his brother and tell him to pick him up in the morning.
Then Sunday I drove him and Brodey to his brother's work. (His brother had his blazer for homecoming the previous evening.) Then David brought Brodey back Sunday night and put in child safety stuff for us.
I really wish that things were different. That his family would forgive me like he did. I know I made a mistake but last time I checked I was only human. I miss his family sometimes. Like being able to go over to his house also and eating dinner with them.
Why do memories have to stay? I hate them. That is the hardest part is remembering all those times together. I opened up my diary and read it last night and cried a little bit because of all the memories. Things I totally forgot that happend.
Sometimes I wish that the memories all disappeared and the only thing about him that I could remember was that he is my son's father. I wish I could fall asleep and wake up tomorrow not remembering the bad or good memories. 39 months with someone is such a long time. So many memories...
Sometimes I feel as if I am the only person in the world that is going through this. That feels this way. I feel alone. I know that I am not, and their are people I can talk to like my mom, but it is hard. You know? When I feel like this the one person I want to talk to is David.
To his family:
I apologize for everything that was ever said.
I hate holding grudges. I hate being hated. I cannot stand it when someone holds a grudge against me. I hate feeling like the most hated person in the world. I wish things were different! I wish I could take it all back!!!!
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
My Birthday
My birthday is in 3 days!!!!!
In two I am going to the Church Dance club with the one and only Mr.David Gregg. My cousin and maybe some of her friends are going to meet us there! It should be a fun filled night. An early Bday celebration!
I told DJG that we are going to have a contest to see who can dance with the most people of the opposite sex! Ha ha. I will def dance with him though.
It seems to me that all my friends around me are getting married. I feel so left behind. I was planning this beautiful wedding that was stopped in its tracks. Then I rushed into things and started planning another wedding.
Yes I have now had TWO fiances.
Oh well life goes on.........
Also on Friday my little guy will be ELEVEN months! I just cannot beleive how much he has grown or how much he looks like his daddy. I never knew two people who look so much alike that are not twins. It blows my mind.
((TO:DAVID FROM:ME))
In two I am going to the Church Dance club with the one and only Mr.David Gregg. My cousin and maybe some of her friends are going to meet us there! It should be a fun filled night. An early Bday celebration!
I told DJG that we are going to have a contest to see who can dance with the most people of the opposite sex! Ha ha. I will def dance with him though.
It seems to me that all my friends around me are getting married. I feel so left behind. I was planning this beautiful wedding that was stopped in its tracks. Then I rushed into things and started planning another wedding.
Yes I have now had TWO fiances.
Oh well life goes on.........
Also on Friday my little guy will be ELEVEN months! I just cannot beleive how much he has grown or how much he looks like his daddy. I never knew two people who look so much alike that are not twins. It blows my mind.
((TO:DAVID FROM:ME))
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